Anxiety

Don't ask me to go. Don't ask me to stay. Just let me stand in this soil of the land of not being ok. I don't want to be fixed, mended, glued, or placed back into a place that I don't understand But on the other hand, I do want to be understood. Being understood …

My vows to you

To my husband, I loved you before you loved me. It was etched in a glass plate of time when you held me against that wall and kissed me on your birthday. I knew when you sent that small sonnet to my phone that said “I was thinking of you.” Your hair is like velvet.  …

Husband

If I can’t tell my husband to fuck off once a day in laughter, what is the point of marriage?  He is mine.  I was in love at first sound.  He is sexy when he smiles when he flicks his hair when he is working, he is sexy when he makes a pun, and when …

Becky’s Cookie Mix

There is a recycled pasta sauce jar on the top of my frig. Inside this jar is a dry cookie mix that was given to me as a gift. I can't bring myself to use it.  The colorful chocolate chips remind me of her heart.  Life surprises you with the people it mixes into your …

Let’s talk about sex.

The horizontal tango, snoo snoo, bouncing on the bed, and my personal favorite the sexy times.  There is an energy in the air when you know that tonight is the night.  Nothing makes sense. You see your target, you go to the target, you make your request, and you are shut down. But that is …

What makes me Pro-Choice

Love

Love is petrifying. “I love you,” are three words that will make or break someone. Love can create a soft blanket of peace or a damning fate of a war. Love is music. Love can be a myth for some and a core of truth for another. Love is thrown away into an ocean of …

I don’t want to know you

I don’t want to know you. There is something in the hardcore of my being that collects those tears I don’t want to cry by the buckets because I don’t want to know you. I don’t like you. You are the shadow that nightmares are made of that doesn’t blister away as the morning light …

Unread

Halls Lockers Whiteboards Buzz. Don’t breathe. Buzz. Cold floors Buzz. Pull out the phone with clammy hands to turn on silent. Look at message. “Active shooter?! Please stay alive.” Locks on doors. Opened books on desks and kids trying to no cry. BAM!!! Tears having noise. BAM!! BAM!! BAM!! Ears being covered. Snot running noses. …

Words

Language is a romance between tone, delivery, and meaning. The word “love” is smooth, poetic, and it can stop a heartbeat. But they can be used as a knife that splits your lips as you crash against a wall from a “loving” hand. Words can be compared to heavy water from a nuclear site.  They …