Seven years ago today

seven years ago today I was given a small little thing. Her name was Anne. My husband and I never really thought about having kids of our own and was completely ok with just my two boys, but when we found out in July of 2011 that we were pregnant everything as you can imagined …

Not today

You do not want to pick a fight with me. Oh, no, Satan. Not today. I am known to be blunt, honest, and tactful. I am blunt, because cutting corners will only get you lost. I am honest, because my lying as hurt those who I love. I am tactful, because I don’t know where …

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I don’t know why you’re. I don’t know why you care. Your nothing words and you’re empty stare; brings nothing but bad air. You were once full of cashmere. Your arms were hot and warm. But not there is nothing to feel, your eyes are grey and fingers steel. I must run for the sun. …

Converse

The word is “converse” not “conversate!” I was called a “slag” once in heat on confrontation. Why am I being called a discarded piece of metal? I am confused. “Did you see that T.H.O.T over there?” I am looking for someone thinking in a corner. The term “Blue waffle” was an education. I don’t look …

Without You

There a nightmare, a dark memory. I know that I am awake but it lives in the most harmful boxes in my brain that it hurts to breathe. I see the silver ring encrusted in earth stones and I feel like I am living in a great pretending. We wrote the vows, we spoke the …

A Letter to Papa

Dear Papa, I have not spoken to you in 20 years and won't ever again. You death came as a surprise to me because the amount of doubt and insecurity in my feelings was too much for me to understand. As a grandparent, you were supposed to me a refuge to me, a person I …

When love finds you

confession time. I love watching divorce court. I love hearing the stories and getting the good advise but it is something about how people love or don't know how to love. I have been cheated on, lied to, promise the moon and stars, and everything utterly fail. I have held on to something so tight …